She Resides in Two Places at Once

 I long to split my being in two 

I’d give half to him, the other to you. 

Think with my mind? Choose with my heart?                                                     

From both you and him, I cannot part. 

You are good for my future

He is food for my soul 

You were my abuser 

But still, you make me whole. 

I think I am unlovable

My hands ruin souls of those I touch

The love I give is destructible 

Yet, I don’t want to escape your clutch.